Written by: BTSADV Survivor
I was 17 years old back then. I was young, naïve, and thought that everyone had a heart like mine. Reality quickly taught me differently. I was a child that chose to be with a man that could’ve been my father. Nothing came good of that choice – except my two children; they are my blessings from God. I left him, found out I was pregnant, and I went back thinking my baby deserves to have what I didn’t. I also thought he was a changed man.
That lasted for so long then the verbal abuse got bad. I was always a whore, bitch, or cunt. I was told that I was as worthless as tits on a bill and that I was a scumbag or that I would suck a d*** for a cigarette and so much more. Before the baby came, I had been beaten with bottles.
I remember being thrown from a horse and being trampled. Being tortured and terrorized. Being put outside in the rainy cold weather with nothing but a t-shirt and underwear on. I remember trying to get in the car and being shot at with a BB gun. A dog attacked me on command. He stabbed me with pear knives and screwdrivers.
My hair would be so knotty that I could not brush it for weeks and my head was tender because of the beating I got. After the baby was born, there were many threats, and I wasn’t allowed to talk to any family. I had no friends. He had taken my life away. My kids didn’t know their family on my side until they were a few years old.
I don’t have any pictures of the abuse nor did I ever report it. That was a big mistake, but I am here today eight years later, and I think God I am. I also am happily married to a wonderful man that God sent to me five months later. We have four kids all together and counting. I did it, and you can, too. You can live your best life.
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